Why we shouldnt cure cancer.

I know it sounds harsh, but hear me out.
I don't know why, but Ive been thinking about this a lot lately.
Everyone's so intent on curing diseases like cancer and HIV but why does no one ever consider what would happen if these things were cured?
I'm not saying that it doesn't greatly sadden me that these diseases kill so many, and affect so many peoples lives in horrible ways, but if they were cured, the planet would effectively, be fucked. More fucked than it is already. Ive read that cancer accounts for 13% of all deaths, around 7.6 million, HIV kills around 1.8 million a year (these numbers are outdated by a couple years, the death rates are growing though) so that means if these diseases are cured around 9 million more people would survive each year. The world is becoming over run as it is, 9 million more people alive means 9 million more mouths to feed, house, pay for, etc. There are simply too many people on the planet to even cope now, the effects of curing such diseases would be disastrous. These diseases are natural, its natures way of ensuring the world doesn't become over populated, to ensure there's a balance. After all nothing can work without balance.
I'm not saying nothing should be done about cancer and other horrible diseases, but surely prevention rather than cure is whats needed? People have to die, that's the way the world works, but preventing so many from dying is far better than curing. Imagine if everyone actually took medical advice about protecting yourself from such diseases? Much less people would have to go through the trauma of being diagnosed with cancer, and those who did follow the advice but still got it, well. That's just how things should be in order for a balanced to be maintained.
I know a lot of people wont agree with me and that's fine. Everyone has their reasons to hate cancer, most people will have been or will be affected by it if not directly then indirectly at some point in their life, but that's what it is, life. Cure cancer, and something more terrible will arise, a new disease tailored by nature to keep the balance, that's how it works so that the world CAN work.
I really hope I haven't offended anyone, I do find things like this tragic because it will always break my heart that people have to die in such horrible ways, but I think that's what you have to accept because like Ive said, it has to be that way.
Gimme your ideas, I want peoples views. Tell me I'm wrong but tell me why.

THE END IS NIGH ._.

Don't worry, this isnt going to be some cliche thing about how Im going to make all of these new years resolutions, and Im gonna be a different, better person blah blah blah, 'cause we all know thats all bullpoopy. I mean, come on. Who ACTUALLY sticks to their resolutions FOR A WHOLE YEAR?! I know I dont.
Its not even about the new year ahead, its about the one past. I think this is more a way of reminding myself of the amazing things that have happened this year. Usually Im all like 'zohmigosh, hasnt this year gone quick?!?!?!?' but no. This year has almost been timeless. The beginning of this past year feels like so long ago. But I think thats maybe because SO much has happened that it doesnt feel like it could fit into 12 short months.
At the beginning of the year, my life was dull as anything. Well, dull for me. I wouldnt exactly call the amount of family crap that was going on then dull, but it certainly wasnt exciting either.
- ANYWAY
Then things got interesting.
In the small space of 365 days, I have (in order, I think ...):
Seen My Chemical Romance, my biggest heroes who Ive been waiting to see since I was 9.
Met someone who I started talking to on twitter and is now one of the best friends I could ask for - Tanja <3
Drunk myself into countless oblivion's and got myself in to pretty big trouble over it. Yeah, not entirely proud of that.
Completed my GCSE's without much fuss ( AND WITH FREAKIN' A*'S?!) left school, and got into college.
Lost contact with everyone on my dads side. A learning curve, I must say. Nothing better than knowing where you stand with your own blood.
Gone out of the UK for the first time, ALONE :ooo to Luxembourg to visit Tanja and have a week I'll never forget, and one I can never repay her for.
Met my incredible boyfriend, for whom I couldnt be more grateful for <3
Gone to Spain to celebrate my 17th birthday and see my grandad with my cousin and Melissa. Too much drink, not enough money that week, thats for sure ...
Started college, met Kat, who I clicked with instantly and is now one of my best friends (its strange, you'd think we've known each other forever the way we abuse each other).
Met many of my favourite 'famous people' i.e all of Canterbury, You Me At Six and especially Gustav Wood. Totally didnt fangirl like a pleb. Totally did ... ><
And finally, seen more of my favourite bands, met loads more lovely people and done more amazing things ^^
PHEW, all that in a year?! And that isnt everything, that just all I can be bothered to write ... :']
It sounds like a very good year, but its had its lows. And I find my lows to be very low sometimes. But I dont think anything could outweigh the incredible things that have happened to me since January.

I do so hope next year is as eventful .. Good and bad, it all makes for life experience, which is always good, right?

And besides, still a month to go before the end of this year yet ... I've learnt that anything can happen, no matter the space of time ... ;]

Anyway, its good to think about a year past when you've come to end of it. Even if you've had a bad year, everything that happens to us is to be learnt from. And I know well enough that thats easier said than done, but sometimes it only takes a second glance to see something clearly, to see the lesson to be learnt. It only takes a second glance to see something you didnt before, like retracing your foot steps :]

AND LOOK FORWARD TO THE COMING YEAR! Trust me on this one ANYTHING can happen. If someone had told me all of the above would happen to me, I'd have lol'd good and hard in their face. But it did all happen, and Im more than grateful for it. And it just goes to show how quickly life can change, sometimes for the worst, but also for the better. Anything could be waiting round the corner :]

Always keep a weather eye on the horizon, the future is coming ^-^

Babbit <3

All Ya Need Is Love, da dadada daaa.

So I'm meant to be writing a post about my wonderful love Eric, but when it comes to him all I can do is keyboard mash. Soooo, I thought I'd put it in universal terms. And put it with a moral, like my other posts, starting with something I believe.

I believe that humans are not made to, and therefore cannot live alone. Everything we do in our lives, whether consciously or subconsciously is to attract and keep a partner. Anyone who says they're happier alone is lying. No human is happy with prolonged loneliness, they can fool themselves into thinking so, but sooner or later they'll realise they need someone.
Despite this, not everyone is lucky enough to find their someone. But for those who do, it stirs emotions and feelings that no other experience in the world could conjure. There is nothing better than knowing you've someone who loves you, and cares for you and is just as crazy about you as you are them. That knowledge alone can completely change your view on love and even life.
I never really knew, not believed in love, just silly childish imitations of what it could be. But when you find it, and know it, its like being handed a new perspective. Without love, even the love of friends and family, and if you've no intention of seeking love or accepting it, then what point is there in life? Love can be the most destructive of emotions, but also the most healing. Despite us humans being an incredibly selfish race, love can make us do things for other people that we'd never do for ourselves. It's easy to ruin our own lives, but when you've the love of another human, someone who's life you could also be ruining just by destroying your own, you suddenly realise you're not meant to just live for you, you suddenly become aware that just by having someone love you, you have this conscience. You're now no longer so selfish because love has given you someone to share your life with. And for the reason you more start living for them, rather than yourself and vice versa. And I think that's what it means to be one with someone. To kinda share your life, all your energy and emotion with someone who's sharing theirs with you ... And suddenly nothing else matters :')
And I've seriously rambled a lot, good lord ... My apologies to anyone I just made vomit and/or fall asleep. I just wanted to get my view out, and let Eric know how he's affected me :'3
So before I ramble anymore I'll just say this;
Don't give up on love, or whatever you want to call it. No ones built to be alone forever, so you might as well just accept the fab fours words-
ALL YA NEED IS LOVE~ da dadada daaa.

On Being Yourself: The Second Best Banana.

This is something my year 6 teacher gave me when we left primary school. I think its just about the most truthful and important advice if ever been given, so I thought I'd share it with you guys :)

On Being Yourself
You must learn that you cannot be loved by all people.
You can be the finest apple in the world - ripe, juicy, sweet, succulent, and offer yourself to all.
But you must remember that there will be people who do not like apples.
You must understand that if you are the worlds finest apple, and someone you love does not like apples, you have the choice of becoming a banana.
But you must be warned that if you choose to become a banana, you will be a second-rate banana.
But you will always be the finest apple.
You must also realise that if you choose to be a second-rate banana, there will be people who do not like bananas.
Furthermore, you can spend your life trying to become the best banana - which is impossible if you are an apple - or you can seek again to be the finest apple.

I adore this saying, or whatever you'd call it. And I hope you can take as much meaning from it as I have these past years ^.^
Babbit <3

Many Minds A-Muttering.

I'll start by asking a question. Im hoping some people will say 'yes.'
No, its not marriage ;]
Its this;
Does your brain have full blown arguments with itself? Like, the uh ... Voices ... You have no control over what they say, its literally like theres random people in your head ... ?
If you're not reading this and thinking 'what the dog muck is she on' then thats a good start.
Because basically, I realised that my head natters away to itself without any input from *me*, like the voice I hear now as I type this, that voice doesnt isnt whats arguing. I'll give an example before someone rings the mental police on me.
Last night I was feeling a little confused (not really anything new there then) and my head was having this conversation with itself:
'Pleasepleaseplease dont be all bi polar with me ... But its okay for me to be bi polar with you ... Is that what I do? ... Thats terrible ... But Im allowed to do it ... No, why am I allowed, its not fair to make people feel like that. It doesnt feel like that when I do it.'
And then I literally realised I was talking to myself. Even in my head I was suddenly thinking 'who the fuck is that in my head?!' .... Thats just one of the more sane conversations Ive intercepted. Sometimes my head spews such utter abuse at itself, I get seriously scared o.o
I know everyone has that inner voice, but does everyones seem so disconnected? Its so hard to explain! Even though its referring to me as me, it really is just like theres some random person all up in my brain.
So yeah ... Am I alone in this :s?

Dangerous dreams ... o.o

So as I said I'll write about my dreams on here instead of clogging Twitter with awful randomness.
I had a dream the other day, I dont remember much apart from the fact that it was r e a l l y long, and one section in the middle stuck with me.
 I was in this place, somewhere thats popped up a few times in my dreams, and its kinda hard to explain. It feels like Im in a house, and something about it reminds me of my nans house, but its actually like a coast. I think its the beach from Ireland that I went to yeeeaaars ago. Anyway, I say it was a coast but the shore was tiny, like the whole ocean had been shrunk and the water didnt look much deeper than a puddle. It was one of those weird dream things where it was massive and tiny at the same time O.o I stood at the edge and there was a little drop off the sand into where the water started. I was talking to my mum who was behind me and the sand just suddenly completely sunk under my feet and I slid into the water which was now incredibly deep, but I could still touch the floor. I tried pushing up against the sand to reach the surface of the water but it was molding round my feet and sucking me down like quick sand. Then someone jumped in, I think it was a girl, someone who I vaguely recognised but I'd already kind of passed out. They dragged me out (leaving shreds of my legs behind in the sand, which was kind of unsettling to say the least) and pulled me onto the other side of the shore then sunk away into sand ....
So yeah. I have no idea whats about, if you've got any ideas do tell :'] I think it has something to do with the fact that I cant stop thinking about the sea lately. I love being on the coast and I havent been there in a long while and its driving me slightly insane. My dream seems to be warning me against the sand though o.o maybe its a prophetical dream? Who knows.

End Of The Beginning.

As if I just stole a 30STM title! ;] Its the perfect way to describe today though. I have left school, and now I'll only go in for exams ... So, in a way this is the end of the beginning of my life. Ive spent the past almost 14 FREAKIN' YEARS in school preparing for this moment, the moment I get chucked into the real world and begin life. And now its here Im not entirely sure how I feel. If you've already left school, what was is it like for you? Is there supposed to be this gaping hole left behind? I think this all would be a whole lot easier if I wasnt facing it alone. But all my friends are staying on at our high school to do IB together, and I m going college alone. I havent had to make friends by myself, without knowing ANYONE since I was 2 in nursery. And when you're that young, its not even thinking is it? Everyones your friend. But now, theres this fear of rejection, of judgement and being pushed away and alone. And thats just when Im around people I already know, so god knows how I'll cope with strangers.
I dont think the cataclysm of the things ahead has hit me yet. I still feel like college and independence are a million years away, but I know pretty soon its gonna sneak up and slap me in the face. The thought of which is terrifying, as me and independence /really/ don't mix. Im really not very good at being grown up. I still feel like such a child, and I rely on other people a lot, so lord knows what Im going to do over the next few years as I begin my less than graceful ascent into adulthood. I say ascent, but we all know its downhill from here .... :']
ANYWAY, this all sounds miserable, but I am excited about college and meeting new people, its just getting over that first hurdle, isnt it? After that, Im sure I'll be fine. Its not like Im the only one to ever leave school and go to college, if everyone else can survive so can I.
If you've in the same boat as me ... Just remember; even if you're not a believer in 'one door closes, another door opens' thats what you could turn this into. See it as an oppertunity to start fresh ('cause lets face it, its half way through the year and we're all feeling a bit like that now, arent we) and learn from everything that high school taught you, not just education wise but socially also. And besides, NOTHING can be worse than the torment of high school, right? ;]
At least thats what Im telling myself :]
Anywho, this is Babbit, over and out <3